Raw Thoughts

Until it Happens to You!

We live in a country that is self centered. Where we are blinded by the extended need to help, or fully understand the struggles of others! Until your company goes bankrupt, fires individuals, someone you know gets sick, natural disaster takes all that you own, robbery, identity theft, divorce, death, or any kind of devastating event, most of us don’t care enough to take action! In other words, if its not in your backyard it’s not your problem. One thing I know for sure, there is nothing new under the sun and what goes around comes around, so no one is immune to needing one another to care! Somehow we are satisfied with a tweet or a facebook message that

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Life & Living

The most amazing phenomenon about LIFE is that we all start LIVING and dying the instant we are born; you can’t have one with out the other. I guess the most important thing is to offer the world the best that you have to GIVE and at the end of the day if you are here today and gone tomorrow you can say… One thing is for sure, I was definitely the best at being me and there will never be anyone exactly like me. In other words, LIVING stops but LIFE continues dead or alive just make sure that while you’re LIVING that you GIVE the world your best and you will be remembered for the LIFE that you

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Destitute to Doctorate

R.A.W. is awarded a 2018 Mountainfilm Commitment Grant We are excited to announce that our upcoming documentary short film R.A.W. – From Destitute to Doctorate was awarded a 2018 Mountainfilm Commitment Grant of $2k. This is really cool on many levels. Mountainfilm is a well-respected documentary festival that takes place every spring in the beautiful city of Telluride, Colorado. Only 11 projects received grant money out of 170 applicants. “We are so thrilled to support this important and timely project,” said Lucy Lerner, Program Manager at Mountainfilm. According to their website: “As part of the nonprofit’s commitment to helping tell stories that matter, Mountainfilm awards Commitment Grants each fall to filmmakers, photographers, artists and adventurers whose projects are intended to inspire audiences to

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“U. R. A. “W.”

“U. R. A. “W.” So that we never forget That there’s no such thing as losing If we never give in. We are made of both miracles and molecules, the evidence of things unseen, living proof of the fire within… Somebody said “God bless the child that can hold his own… instrument … ‘long as he plays to win.” Link to audio https://m.soundcloud.com/hakim-bellamy/are-a-w

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“Are. A. W”

“Are. A. W” When U R the lowest pitched instrument in the brass family, at one time the only family you got, you are painfully aware that even jazz and the blues have a bottom. A low end theory. Often the only one of your kind in an orchestral configuration, A seat reserved for you on principal alone, As opposed to pigmentation. It takes guts to be a tubaist, takes more to achieve greatness, The near equivalent of small intestinal tubing Remind you of the days that you had to eat your imagination For breakfast. So g-d gave you a second stomach A second esophagus An embouchure (aam· boo·shoor) Resurrected as a student of second chances, always coming back for

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Black and White

We could all probably tell stories for days, but I would like to share a few. Racism, ignorance, and prejudice are three very different things. Also, we can not just simply put one race into a negative category. In high school at The Baltimore School for the Arts, true story. I was what you call a “YO BOY,” and somewhat of a comedic trouble maker! One day the brass ensemble had to go on a recruiting trip which meant being away from school. At the end of the day we returned to school, and I was called to the deans office. At this point I am feeling really good, because I couldn’t be in trouble today, because I wasn’t here!

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Bubbles

Every now and then I like to think out loud. Sometimes in life things happen and it makes us realize something about the way we see the world! Not many in this bubble called “life” imagines they could die at any minute. The thought is quite the reverse: in that most believe that the world can be controlled, risk eliminated, and fate mastered. Grades, admissions, love, relationships, credentials—the steady, predictable climb up the ladder of professional success—that’s the idea. We’re going to live a long time, and the world is not going to take us by surprise. Has there ever been another group of people, in all of human history, that’s possessed that kind of attitude in reference to the

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Drama

Sometimes you wake up in life and all you can do is wonder why me, what is going on, and how am I ever going to fix or get out of this mess? Oh, and don’t tell me I am getting sick… This my friends is called life, because these sometimes overwhelming obstacles that we most often perceive as being disastrous are nothing more than experiences for the mind body and soul. Just as our bodies need nourishment to survive so does our portfolio of life – for without those little episodes also known as “drama,” our lives would be nothing more than a blank sheet of paper with lots of holes. Its funny but you never hear people say

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When it Rains it Pours

Some scientist have made claims that crying is actually healthy for you and it has a lot to do with why women live so much longer than men across the board. Have you ever asked yourself what could possibly be the meaning of tears? At times they fill our entire body with tremendous sorrow while at others times it’s the exact opposite when the tears flow out of astonishment and great joy. If you’ve ever wanted to have a conversation with your body in which your body told you exactly how it was feeling at any given moment, be thankful because this is what happens when we cry. Next time the tears start to roll just remember that every now

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Time

Time is one of the few things in life that can’t be manipulated by man. It has the ability to makes us feel fearful about the unknown, the future, outcomes, and even the present. No pun intended but at “times,” it has us wanting to fast forward the moments of everyday life, and at other times it has us wanting to freeze those glorious nuances of a joyful day. Time is endless in size it can contain every moment of life suspending that which is happening all around you. It’s in our best interest to join that in which we can not beat, so let’s ask ourselves what time is it? Well, the answer is that its time to take

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Whispers

Ever wonder why the human mind is quite capable of producing voices when there is not an actual person talking to you? You know it’s that voice of your conscious inner mind that rings over and over in your head like a blazing fire alarm. Whispers have a way of some times being louder than the human voice itself. The interesting thing about whispers or silent voices of the mind is that they reveal or remind us of our deepest thoughts and most often our truest thoughts. So then the real question becomes how do we know when to pay attention or ignore those little voices that are most often in contrast to what we desire most? Confirmation from close friends

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Lust

It is a quiet beast that lives in all of us! Sometimes it’s just a thought or a personal “momentito,” that allows us to be naughty or nice. It can produce such reactions as a simple smile, or it can elevate the temperature in any room to sizzling! By definition,Lust is any intense desire or craving for self gratification. Lust can mean strictly sexual, although it is also common to speak of a “Lust for life when referring to things such as food, materialistic items or danger” We have all had those moments where we see a fine individual and that little inner person with in us, steps to the front and starts saying things like – “OOOOO, OH MY GOD YOU

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The Day After

Well, yesterday was here and now it’s gone, just as the days before and after it, it lasted about 24 hours. Take a look around everything is still the same with the exception of all us being one day older. Love is not some random force or freak accident of nature that needs to be hyped up by the notion that out of 366 days in a year we are considerate enough to donate one day in the name of love….. Just ask yourself if you made a chart comparing yesterday to most every other day, what are the differences and should there really be an abundance of temporary changes in professing ones love? Consistency is a beautiful thing a

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Hope

Hope, by definition is a feeling that something desirable is likely to happen. Sometimes in life hope is all we have to hold onto – it’s right up there with a belief in a higher authority. Hope gives us strength when our bodies have nothing left to give. Hope allows our dreams to have longevity when the end seems near. Hope shows us love and support even when those we love sometimes fail. Hope keeps us young as we get older and makes us older when we are younger. To me it’s the best kept secret in life, with hope we can overcome the unknown and pursue what ever our hearts desire. Understand that everyday is a gift and a

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Ecstasy

Ecstasy by definition is a feeling of intense delight. Often times in life because of work, family, kids, friends, school, or even relationships we tend to over look the multitude of simple pleasures that surrounds us everyday. How about those mornings when you wake up early, only to realize that you have a few more hours to sleep. Then, there is that day where you find those old jeans you’ve been neglecting to wear for a while and in the pocket you find a ten dollar bill. What about standing in line waiting to pay for that new outfit only to find out that its on sale and it cost less than expected (damn should have picked up two)! Let’s

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Charm

Charm is that most creative quality that delights or attracts. It’s the kind of thing that never stays the same. It mutates every few minutes in order to maintain an aura of magic and control. Why are humans so attracted to charm and often fooled by it? I’ll tell you why, it’s because charm is faceless! Its equivalent to those imaginary friends we all had as kids when we use to play “make believe.” In our minds those friends were real and their lure was uncontrollable, because they had the potential to do and be what ever we wanted. The imagination is infinite and because of this we often go beyond what’s happen at the moment because we are focused

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Eminem

I’M NOT AFRAID … sometimes life just gets to the point where we need to scream with all that we are, and all that we have- inside life burns with so much frustration that we literally feel strong enough to crush planet earth! What to say? What to do? What’s next? How will this ever work out? Imagine having the power to dig deep, see the whole picture, ripping yourself inside, only to find that you are made of the hardest substance on earth, and that you can shine no matter what, because you are a diamond! “ I’m not afraid to take a stand” Fear has limits, all we have to do is stand up and face them head

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Existence

Michael Jordan, Martin Luther King Jr., Michael Jackson, Babe Ruth, Abraham Lincoln, Rosa Parks, and this list could go on forever but what if Michael Jordan never held a basketball or Martin Luther King Jr. never made that famous “I Have a Dream Speech”? Life is a complex and mystifying phenomenon. If we believe in the notion that everyone is put on this earth for a reason and purpose, what happens when some of those people never make it into the world to see or achieve their mission or purpose in life? What if you were personally responsible for stopping slavery, or inventing electricity, how about the vaccinations for so many deadly viruses? How far we have advanced in our

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Friendship

Why are so many of us reluctant to admit that the internet plays an important role in our everyday activity? Is it shame, uncertainty, embarrassment, ignorance, or just plain silly? The internet is nothing more then the modern day telephone with the element of sight added into the mix. The whole point of communication is to express oneself while letting the other party involved discover who you are. Is it possible to see a person through words on a screen? Absolutely, in fact most of the time a few written sentences will be a better indicator than a mouth full of “BS,” as to what kind of person is before you. In other words, when you can see the “BS”

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Effort

Effort is mental or physical energy that is exerted in order to achieve a purpose. Very few people in life put forth the kind of effort that extends beyond the point of exhaustion. The most successful people in life don’t attempt to do things…. they simply skip that initial step of “what if” and start right in with the “when I conquer this quest that is before me the next step is going to be bigger, better and greater” …… In other words they have learned to harness the power of believing in themselves, and the effort that they are capable of putting forth to the point of absolute self-confidence. Meaning that no matter the goal, difficulty, or circumstances they

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Suspect

Emotions are complicated but they can be made simple, if we pay attention. What’s the difference between “thinking” verses “knowing?” Most of the time in life we find ourselves in trouble because we “think” we “know” something… its that feeling of mistrust or doubt that creates worry, especially because we “think” something has happened based on speculation. Self-explanations seem to comfort the mind, but in reality all they do is provide a comfort blanket to believe in what ever we desire thus the term “Bull Shit!” Knowing is far-reaching, substantial, forthcoming, and sensitive, it contains none of the cloaked deception. In other words, there are no false impressions or figment of the imagination, just straight answers thus the term “No

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The Master Key

The difference between love and friendship to me is like having different keys. They all may open doors, some only one, others may seem to fit the grooves but won’t turn… but one is a master key and it is allowed to open all the doors. The perfect combination is having both a master key along with that little key that opens the safe in the master bedroom, and the luxury suite. The keys that fit into the door, but does not actually open it we tend to hand out on a regular basis, because society has taught us that its “polite” The beauty of this friendship is that you can hand out these keys all day every day, and

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Dancing

Most likely when the word dancing comes to mind we all think of a beat, some kind of fluid motion, or in some cases a jerky and down right embarrassing motion that moves in opposition to the beat. Ever stop to wonder just how good most people are at dancing around the issues of everyday life. It’s like sliding on a piece of ice in that you know that in an instance you could totally bus your ass but yet we do it repeatedly. Well, it is this same kind of maneuvering that the majority of us have mastered in relation to dealing with what I call the facts of life. How many of us have said “Man I swear

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Change

Remember the type writer, 16 oz sodas, rock candy, dittos, and the T.V. sets where you had to turn the dial and if you broke the antenna you just used a clothes hanger to fix the reception. How about the spin dial phone, cassette tapes, records, tube socks, and lets not forget about those wonderful color combinations on those socks like orange and black. Look around it may not seem like much has changed but take a tour of your house and think about what things were like ten and twenty years ago. We want so much in life that often times we forget how far we have come and just how much “New Stuff” we have acquired. Sometimes in

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The One

“I like hanging out with this one, but I am just not attracted to him sexually”, and “this one is hot but he’s an ass”, and “this one can rock my world like nobody in bed but the conversations suck”, and finally” this one is so sweet but everything is always the same.” Ever had any of the above thoughts, and enjoyed fascinating conversations with your girlfriends wondering how you can harness the power to change a few things about one of the men above, or even put two of them together? Ladies, the one you are looking for won’t have everything because no one does, but when you get to the point where things are so good they become

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Theory of Love

At first it is one of the greatest discoveries in life, with endless dream – like qualities and characteristics. Love at first is full of smiles, wonders, hope, optimism, and praise, somehow making its way around the universe to touch each one of us at least once. So why is there such a monumental mystery surrounding the true meaning of love? Well, I have a theory. Most of us spend a lifetime chasing what we “think” we know and “desire,” while ignoring our true feelings that are truly being dictated by our body’s actions and reactions. In other words, most of the time it is more about what we like and what we want, and not so much about what we feel. The

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